found a pretty carpenter bee lying dead on the sidewalk at 3 in the morning. it was dark. i wasn't tired. i was glad to have found her. i went and saw sam mendes' new film away we go, it was really sweet. it made me want to be in love. it made me sad and nostalgic. i wonder if i'll ever have the problems some of them had. i hope so. as long as i'm not alone.