davey rothbart, my heart is an idiot

hunted for mushrooms this morning in the light drizzle of rain with nicholas and zach. we ate them for breakfast with potato pancake and poached egg, red lantern jelly and chevre. lattes to boot. hunted for antiques later with joseph and found all the things that i would find: 70’s era hot wheels, plaid wool blanket, farm animal toys, “bear-ettes”, an old tin, pretty floral lace, and four different jump ropes. awesome! singing to cat power now and thinking about her and tina shooting up together. still raining. still changing, still wondering, still tingling. got some clarity tonight. and tiny skulls from the outside. grateful and expecting.